THE END OF A CHAPTER

Last week me and my family were sorting my Grandma's old apartment out and while I was sitting in a very echoed room, I kept looking around and every corner of it reminded me of my childhood. There is that bed where I used to play with all of her jewelry, there is that armchair with which I feel down when I was 5, there is that kitchen where she used to make me the best kind of soup that no one else knows how to and I won't ever get to taste it, there is the driveway where she used to wave as we were driving away to our home, there is that balcony where I used to sit at when it was very hot outside.
We were going through all of her things, we threw away so many of them which have been probably very important for her and which she was keeping just like we all do because we all cling onto stuff and it's so strange that you keep so many things in your life and you leave it all behind. I am a  very sentimental person anyway, but it's so strange and so difficult to go through someone's so close to you things when you know she is not around anymore. She is actually not with us for almost a year already but at that time when I was looking around this empty apartment, I realized that she is indeed gone forever. Strangely even at the funeral I haven't felt that she was gone, I just felt relief that after so much suffering she went to a better place and even though in this year there were many moments when I missed her a lot, that day when we said goodbye to her apartment proved that she is not going to hug my anymore at all.
After we give the keys away, all we have left from her are the memories we will keep with us forever. I understand very well that this is just an apartment with many things in it and it isn't even that nice but I spent so much time there as I was growing up and it was a place to come to which was very comforting and safe and her presence there made it much more special. Now it's just an old and empty apartment with empty walls and wardrobes. But it's also a part of my childhood which is never going to come back just like my Grandma.
All I wanted to do at that time was to hug her which I can't do and won't be able to do ever. I really miss her a lot and it has probably hit me only that day just how much I really miss her in my life. This is, of course, course a part of life we can't escape but it's very very sad.  I got chills even writing about her and I know she is watching us from above and I really hope she is happy there and she knows just how much we all miss her in our lives.

HERE'S HOW WE CELEBRATED FATHER'S DAY

  When you think of Summer, you imagine the Sun shining up in the sky, birds chirping around, warm breeze and warmth.. (Palm trees added to the picture would be absolutely idyllic). Well, Lithuanian Summer isn't always like this. On Sunday we woke up to a very rainy weather and the first days of the Summer weren't sunny at all. To be honest, I didn't really mind this as I had to stay home anyway to study for my exams but I'm hoping this is only the rainy beginning because Summer that looks exactly like Autumn isn't the best thing. This past week was pretty hectic, in these past 8 days I've had to take 4 exams, so only now I can finally relax for a while. Ed Sheeran is the singer of the night in my room tonight and I can finally do some blogging.

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Despite this unhappy weather, last Sunday we had a Father's day celebration in our country and this was also an international children's day so this was quite a celebration and even though I'm not exactly a kid anymore, we still celebrated this day with my family. Me and my parents went to a really nice Italian restaurant called Basilico and had an absolutely amazing meal.

While being there we all have decided that we wouldn't really mind to eat Italian food every day. In fact, I would love this, Italian food and me get along really well. Me and my Mom got a big pizza to share which was d e l i c i o u s and my Dad got pasta which was great as well.  It was a nice way to remember our Italian trip with real Italian food which was actually really good, we had a glass of wine and enjoyed couple of hours together sitting cozy in a restaurant while it was pouring outside.

A VERY LOVELY MOTHER'S DAY

 We celebrated Mother's day here in Lithuania last Sunday and thankfully it was a very nice and sunny day. Every year I buy my Mom some pretty flowers and bake a cake but this year I wanted to do something different for her, something I knew she'd enjoy. After I brought her some colorful flowers on the early morning, I took her for Sunday breakfast (or more like brunch, it was a midday already) at a very lovely place. I love going to this place, it's located on a very nice street in the city center, food is amazing, coffee mugs are huge and it has a French atmosphere all about it which is, of course, very nice. The name says it all - Café Montmartre. And they have waffles, you just can't ask for anything more.
  My Mom enjoyed it just as much as I hoped she would, we ate some great desserts (My Mom had chocolate pancakes and I, of course, had waffles) and we had a very nice Mother daughter time. I always like to give presents which are more like experiences rather than actual things, I think it's much more nice to have memories to keep for yourself forever. It was a great start to the day and I loved seeing my Mom enjoying this little brunch as much as I've expected her to.

(EASTER) WEEKEND PHOTO DIARY

Easter was almost a week ago and I'm posting these pictures only now. For some reason I've been all over the place and these holidays I've just weren't spent chilling but only created more mess in my life (head).
Easter was never my favorite holiday but as I'm growing up, I've started to enjoy this celebration a little bit more. This whole pastel theme that Easter definitely has, is appealing to me so much because I'm all for pastels now and I could be one big walking marshmallow if I wore pastels head to toe like I would love to. Also, Easter is a true sign of Spring and this year Easter days were truly warm and sunny and it was the true Spring all around. I remember last year Easter was snowy and I just don't even want to remember this cold, thankfully this year flowers are already blooming all around. So of course this year I've spent the entire weekend without a coat on and it felt amazing. My family, my Grandmother and my Godmother's family even got to eat dinner outside with the sunrise behind us. We were actually forced to do this because electricity went off in the whole street but I think everyone really enjoyed this time spent outside. Family holidays are always combined with family drama in this family and we didn't manage to escape it this year as well but this sunny weather really made everything much better!